Lost..

Lately i felt kinda lost.
Cant seems to concentrate.
Issit i too tired?
I don't know.
Till now she still gives me some negative responds.
Trying to tell she don't like me.
M i really that jialat?
Just now when sending her to work.
I was telling her ever since she said i had a young look.
I went to shin bar i kena check IC.
I went to buy 4D i also kena check IC.
Guess what she told me?
She told me other than i had a young look.
The way i talk also sounds young.
So i asked her izzit my voice?
She said the things i said.
What is she trying to say?
And i told her i was going blue for awhile to wait for huaky.
The next thing she told me is why not you go pitstop find huaky instead of going blue.
Waste $.
Is she realli concern about the $ part or just don't want to see me there?
Hai..
Nvm.


Yesterday went to far east to collect her jeans and skirt.
Went there too late and the shop is closed.
So take dinner at the Da Chang Jin restraunt together with her and ghost.
The dinner is good except for the rice cake cmi.
During dinner, i think we really are like couples.
I believe even ghost think so too.
I also don't know.
But the dinner is expensive.
3 Person cost me $85++.
Shag!


Think back this whole week was quite havoc.
Going home almost every night.
Going changi village almost every night.
Tired.
Manage to sleep till 2+ 3 in the afternoon just now.
Haven had such a long sleep already.
Shiok!


Recently the hot topic is hao how hao how scandal.
Daniel Ong!!
Not the DJ.
Don't know whats wrong with this guy.
Keep msging hao how hao how at night asking her out or asking her what is she doing.
Trying to flirt.
And He even knows she got a bf.
Hmmmmm..
Must give him a 1 time good time next time.
Make him drink.
Bo Shee Bo Sua!


Recently Overheard huaky had a chat with Sianrong.
Also don't know whats wrong with Sianrong.
This 2 couples (huaky & hao yun + faith & siangrong) like cannot get along with each other like that.
They like playing Internal affiars 4 like that.
I don't like to see friends cannot get along.
Sometimes everyone must learn how to compromise each other.
Give and take.
Not everybody is perfect.
Not everybody is big fuck.
As long as they are happy with it then fine.


Just finished a round of mj session and kong house.
Vgoh, Kong, Hao how hao how and me.
Guess whose the winner?
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V goh?
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Kong?
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Me? Hahaha
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Its Hao How Hao How!
1 person win $20+
3 others lose.
So sad.
First time see kong lose till so jialat.
Sad!


Its 3.07am now.
I m not sleeping yet.
Want to know why?
I m thinking whether i should go pick up kelly anot.
But i m afriad she might want to go chiong.
And i m quite shag now.
It has been long since i last send her home.
I like the feeling of sending her to work and home.
At least i know i m doing something for her.


Lost..
I m starting to lose something within me to her..
I dun dare to face it..
whats that something...